Recently I realized three different things:
- I am a bit far from the writing activity:
Nowadays, the progress that I have is like a learning process, a state of observing. I stay out of the picture. I am not like a real character in the movie. The movie is attracting. But I am aware that I don't belong to it. Which stops me to writing and acting. I cannot be an actor obviously. But I can play basketball, when I find a group of people, who are willing to.
2. There is another animal that I would like to be:
In recent years there is a thought that I have: I would like to be another animal, if I had a chance to be born. It is a small, very slow but highly careful -especially for hunting- and philosopher under the light of sun. Because he/she has got lots of days to examine.
However, I also recently found out that there could be another second animal which I would like to be, if I had a chance. I know that the second animal that I chose is a bit cliche. But It gave me really what I wanted. It's a free animal, at least it seems so. It could be also a social one, at least I hope so. The colors that he/she has also normal which can be counted as a good thing aesthetically. Nonetheless, the land which it is dwelling is really good. I say good because its good. What else should I say, if something is good.
3. I am way better at communicating with shit:
I have to admit this, I am a bit obsessed with the toilet cleaning. I did not like the shit before. It mostly seemed disgusting to me. However, by years the conditions have been changed. I encountered with lots of shit and shitty situation. I don't tell this to complain. I am saying this, because it is the happening itself around. Of course all the matter -the substance- are analogous to each other. Therefore, I don't judge being shit. But of course, it was not a close friend of mine.
What I look at the view right now, I see this: I got used it. Every shit that I see, I poop, or interact with is not disturbing me any more, like it is used to be. It means the habituation and wearing off. Of course, I am not talking about real wearing off, but its the beginning. It is the show off to the reality of the time presence. It means that the time is real, and it takes its own way to walk through.
Result: It is always good to end the texts with an outline, a summary, a result if it possible. My summary is like that: Shits are good. Even sometimes they smell, don’t have a proper shape to sketch. They are still good. Because they are not bad. At least as bad as we think. Moreover, being flexible is also good. Smartness requires this. When you realize that you are changing, everything is changing even with tiny scales, it illuminates your little particles that if the things happening are not that bad, they are okay. Greetings from an enjoyable movie.
